The Next Level
Thursday, February 15, 2001
 
I guess Moe, you will now know that there are other eyes that up at night worry just kind of like you do.. Every night for about a year, I would lose sleep over what was happening to me, and everything that was going on in my life.

I would pray to God, and ask him for some simple help in my life to erase my worries, to give him everything in my life up to him and work to not have so much pain that I have been going through.

"BUT" there always seem to be one of these in everyone's life isn't there? :-) He is getting me ready for something huge in my life, not sure about what yet.. but he building me brick by brick, layering the foundation.

I started noticing the phenomenom about 2-3 years ago, when he was telling me that I need to make a change, a move from Portland, Vancouver Washington area back to what I call my childhood home of Lynden..

He built me up with Shalom Center, then I met Moe, and other friends there. Then things went haywire there, and he taught me some Golden lessons there. Then in my life sickness befell me for about a year, and he taught me how to deal with my prideful, bullish ways when I would not listen to what he was telling me to slow down or I was going to slowly kill myself with my disease (diabetic complications).

Then I came upon being able to help other through my experiences, and also trying to help friends.

Well I now have come up with a new problem that I am facing now which is trying to be someone I am not, a person who is analytical, or being someone's psychologist. I guess it stems from the fact that the way I deal with pain is to find a solution to the problem, so that I do not have to face it.

"BUT" God is working with me to teach me new things and now I am listening, sometimes not in the right places, but I try..

God Works in Wonderful AND mysterious ways..

Jeremy


Monday, February 12, 2001
 
once again any thoughts can be sent to moe's email box...heck it might entertain me during the wee hours of the morn. prayerfulheart@hotmail.com

peace
moe
 
HHHeeeellllooo..everyone out there in cyber land and welcome to Moes sleepless night...ha ha ha. I couldn't sleep...when my eyes were open i was horribly tired and when they were closed the movies kept rolling and i had to watch cause well i have mighty important things to figure out in those movies. I am sure i am not alone in this thought...why do our brains torture us? Anyone else out there a compusive worrier or prehaps just a stressful time worrier? aaaahhh...good then i am not alone which brings me to my point of this post God dwells within in us and so when we suffer God suffers too. The God I know is up int the wee hours of the morning worrying when i am up...isn't that great so i am never alone. I was laughing way earlier tonight at the fact that one of the four noble truths is suffering in Buddhism. Imagine that...ha ha ha...suffering leads us closer to our higher power. I have met some pretty incrediable people in the past three years at college and let me tell you behind each incrediable person lies a story of suffering. Guess what i know why they are still alive here today despite their suffering cause they have found something manificent to sustain them during those times of trial just like i have. I have found a strength in God that I see everyday in the people that love and support me. Even when i no longer pray God is there in others...i can't hide...and that is comforting to know i never have to face my darkest enemies by myself. Praise God everyone!!!!...don't give up. :)
Peace
Moe

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